It's been a while...

It has been forever since I have wrote on here. I must say that marriage is amazing, and extremely difficult. Learning to be one person with someone else is difficult. People you were once friends with start to grow away from you, you find out ugly things about yourself, but it doesn't matter because I am learning so much even through the bad. What does suck is I feel myself in a depressed state sometimes and in horrible pain. What can I do? Really just try to relax and breathe. I find the more I stress myself the worse I get the depression back and the worse my pain gets. I do need to write more on this blog. After each post I feel less stressed. Even if no one reads it I feel like someone is listening. Someone has to be listening. I hope through this I help other people and I always feel better about my life if I help someone else.